Waterpark

[yitzchak]

I made 700 dollars yesterday after taxes. They took like three hundred dollars out. I have two dollars left after going to the bank. What I actually have is far less than that. I'm most likely going to defer on my student loans. I think death is in the realm of possibilities.

[burkalini]

Death and Taxes

[yitzchak]

Death is most likely nothingness. So, is my continued existance still better than nothingness, or slightly better, because I get to see the sun set and eat eggs and Ramen noodles?

[yitzchak]

She finally blocked me ... I've been trying to convince her to take my virginity for about a year now. Not for free. I don't know why some people assume I am asking escorts to take my virginity for fee. I even offered her thousands of dollars for it, but she would never even talk to me about it. She never said no or yes, she would just pretend as though I never asked the question, and then text me happy birthday and stuff like that. It was so confusing.

But, she blocked me yesterday night. I asked her how old she was, because it was her birthday on Monday, and she didn't respond. Like an idiot, the following day, I started asking if she was upset, and then started apologizing for not giving her a good enough present. More than a couple of texts later, I resent my birthday present, which was a happy birthday song I had made, said Cheers for [Name]! And then I texted, I can't even imagine what actually having sex would be like, which was a funny thing on my mind, and as soon as she read that, I was blocked ...

I know I am obsessed with her, and I texted too much. I just wish she would tell me what is going on, what she actually feels about me, instead of just blocking me like that. I know I say stupid stuff, and I wasn't mister charming with her, but I feel that I deserved at least that much, after everything I sacrificed for her.

I lied and said I was trolling to protect her from my wailing on here. Her website is down. I think she is making another name change, or has some other plan. I just wish I could know what is going on. It sucks to be left in the cold, after doing so much just to connect with this person.

The only thing I didn't do was not try to talk to her, which is what everyone told me to do, what I knew I should do, and what I desperately wanted to do, but, for some reason, it was too difficult. I would think of her from the moment I woke up to the moment I went to sleep, and then dream of her while I slept. She was all I wanted. How could I have possibly played it cool?

[yitzchak]

This is actually what this thread is about, at its core. Why is an emotional connection not welcome? She even said that she liked me. I don't think her goal was to simply confuse and torture me. She didn't want to cross that "friends boundary," but I still don't understand why there is that boundary, and why we can't actually be friends, instead of this pretend kind of awkward make believe friendship she gave me for the last couple of months.

My real internet friend doesn't block me when I text too much, and if I ask her if she wants to take my virginity, she gives me a response, even if it's simply a no or you'll find someone one day.

I don't know why she do this to me. If she had just said she couldn't be my friend and that this was strictly business from the beginning, I wouldn't have been so confused and acted crazy. I don't know. This sucks.

[carguyf599]

Man, I really wanted to reply to this thread with honest thoughts on a waterpark date.

Then you went and made it all icky.

[yitzchak]

I know. I am sorry.

[yitzchak]

I just wanted her to touch my wiener. I don't know why it was impossible.

[Ceremony]

I am fucking entertained.

[hatecoldwater]

so is there a wave pool at this waterpark?

[yitzchak]

It really sucks to not beable to have what you desperately want, but it is pure hell and utter insanity when everyone else gets to have what you can't and so desperately want, and you can see them ranting about it, and she sends you a picture of her in her bed, but you are not allowed to even speak to her, let alone touch her at all

Some of you have no idea how lucky you are

[hatecoldwater]

so no wave pool huh? that sucks

[Ceremony]

Don't they all have wave pools? How about a lazy river? The one you wanted to take this girl to. Was it indoor or outdoor?

[yitzchak]

I've never heard of an indoor waterpark

[hatecoldwater]

dont go on anything to crazy! remember that kid that got decapitated not too long ago. stick with the lazy river and bring a cooler