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					Originally Posted by Logandog  As my granpappy once said toMe he said "grandson  you can not turn a hooker into a house wife"
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I mean everyone here who knows me 
Knows about what happened with jada, I’m talking about before our falling out.
when I was seeing jada as my provider back in November and December, I fell in love with her (it was all one sided and all in my head as she never saw me more than a client) and I cried like a little kid all night, when she didn’t get back to me (her phone was broken or misplaced at time in which I did not know),almost ending up in the psych ward at Ellis again.
And even after jada, various providers I have seen, I have become pesonally attached with and cry like a little kid if they don’t get back to me.
Honestly I’m lonely and getting laid is not going to fix anything.
Like if a provider I become personal with say screws me over or decides to stop seeing me, I become very sad and depressed.
Sex with the hottest girl wouldn’t make me feel better in that situation 
Instead I just like to stay in bed all day and cry, then a few days later feel better - almost like going thru a breakup  or being dumped by your real girlfriend 
That’s how I feel about these providers after they dump me